CRAVING FOR THE BEST.....

T.H.O.U.G.H.T

2009-05-24T08:19:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum..

Lamanya dah tak menulis dekat blog..Lately mungkin banyak benda yang lebih baik dipendamkan..Sometimes human needs a space for herself or himself..or maybe it is better to keep it as confidential instead of sharing with other people. Alhamdulillah, just came back from one of the Asian country. Everything was fine accept of one part. Travelling is the best solution to keep your mind peaceful. And i did make a right decision. At least I can forget for a while of all the things in IPBA and anything that is still keep burdening my mind. Life is hard right? :)

When I was on a journey, I've read a book written by one of the indonesion's author entitled Musafir cinta. There are lots of things that you can learn from this book. Its not only how we prepare ourselves to love someone but the most important thing is to love your God. Mencintai Tuhan bukanlah sesuatu yang asing untuk manusia. Walaupun kadang-kadang kita terkandas dalam melaksanakan suruhannya, kita tetap disayangi. Nikmat yang diberikan tidak terhingga dan mustahil untuk kita mengatasi pemebrian nikmatnya.Alhamdulillah atas nikmat-nikmat tersebut. Ketika dalam perjalanan, banyak benda yang saya belajar. Selain itu, doa seorang musafir insyaAllah mendapat perhatian dari-Nya. Semoga hari-hari yang akan datang mmapu memberi sirna dalam kehidupan saya. Ada benda yang susah untuk dimengertikan bila adanya hati. Untuk membuang sesuatu yang sudah sebati dalam diri, mampu membuat kita susah untuk bernafas. Hanya ketenangan dan kekuatan yang dicari.

Berbalik kepada novel tersebut, saya tertarik hati dengan ayat penulis tersebut dalam salah satu watak. Mencintai seseorang tidak salah. Teruslah mencintai walaupun tiada balasan yang kita terima. For me, we have our own reasons to love someone. Thank to God, if we can get back what we want. However, there is some people who only have the hope. Just trust yourself and the God. It is not wrong to love someone but just prepare yourself for any circumstances in future.

Feel sleepy and tired now. Need to stop. Pray for the best for me..:)..wasalam..

2009-05-18T09:15:00.000-07:00

اللَّهُمَّ لا سَهْلَ إلَّا مَا جَعَلْتَهُ سَهْلاً وَ إنْتَ تَحْعَلُ الْحزْنَ إذَا شِئْتَ سَهْ

Allahumma la sahla illa ma ja'altu sahla, wa 'anta taj-alul hazna idha shi'ta sahla
O Allah! There is nothing easy except what You make easy, and You make the difficult easy if it be Your Will
[Ibn Hibban]
Allahumma la sahla illa ma ja'altu sahla, wa 'anta taj-alul hazna idha shi'ta sahla
O Allah! There is nothing easy except what You make easy, and You make the difficult easy if it be Your Will
[Ibn Hibban]

T.H.A.N.K.Y.O.U.

2009-05-12T09:08:00.000-07:00

Thank you for being with me along the way,
Thank you for being my inspiration,
Thank you for understanding my flaws,
Thank you for holding my hands throughout the year,
Thank you for everything that you have done to me..

Thank you to God for Your blessings,
Thank you to my beloved family,
Last but not least,
Thank you to you,
Always and always to be remembered..
azu201

LASKAR.PELANGI.

2009-04-27T09:49:00.000-07:00

Laskar Pelangi merupakan sebuah filem yang di terbitkan di Indonesia. Filem ni diperkenalkan oleh someone dekat UK. Sebuah filem yag bagus..berorientasikan sistem pendidikan yang tidak mengejar duniawi semata-mata tetapi diseimbangkan dgn keperluan ukhrawi yg dituntut di dalam Islam.

As a teacher to be, the film was so touching to me. Roles of teachers are not only to educate and teach the children but also to build the whole nations. As such future generations are moulded from these new millennium teachers including my friends and me. InsyaAllah...After having some observations in some of the schools in UK and Malaysia, I can see some of the differences. For instance, the situations are different in terms of facilities and resources. Nonetheless, this film has changed my perception in some ways. The spirit of being a noble teacher is vital. To provide education to children needs a lot of sacrifices from a teacher. Money is not everything. However, the way the teacher enthuse the students to succeed is really a matter.

Kesusahan bukanlah pemusnah sebuah kehidupan tetapi penjana kepada kehidupan yang baru. Bermula dengan semangat dan berakhir dengan kejayaan yang diiringi dengan iltizam yang tinggi. Andai mampu menongkah arus dan sanggup menyelam di lautan dalam, InsyaAllah, setiap kesusahan ada kemudahannya..Itu yang dijanjikan oleh Allah. Walaupun hidup dilingkungi kemiskinan, tak semstinya seseorang tidak mampu berjaya. Something to ponder...Apa yang bermain di fikiran adalah semangat seorang guru untuk berjuang. Bukan senang untuk menjadi seorang muaddib dan mualim. Bukan senang untuk menjadi seorang pendidik dan role model. it is such a prominent role in the society.Mampukah diri ini menjadi seperti guru di dalam filem tersebut? Mampukah diri ini mengatasi anasir- anasir yang mampu menjatuhkan martabat keguruan? Mampukah diri ini mengajar anak-anak untuk bertatih dan pada masa yang sama dirinya terpaksa merangkak untuk mengejar impian?

What I am trying to say is can I be a noble teacher one day? Being a teacher is something that I always want to be. Though it is a tough job, challenging profession, I hope I can give the best to my students. Ya Allah lead me to be what I am supposed to be. Give me the strengths to face the tomorrow and bless me with your Hidayah and Taufiq..Ameen.

azu201

SOMETHING.TO.PONDER.

2009-04-27T09:45:00.000-07:00

Kirimkan surat pengharapanmu di tengah keheningan malam,
Jadikan air matamu sebagai dakwatnya;
Kedua pipimu sebagai kertasnya;
Kepasrahan sebagai setemnya;
dan Arasy Ilahi sebagai alamat(tujuannya).
Setelah itu tunggulah jawapannya...

Dr Aidh Abdullah Al-Qarni...

I......H.A.T.E.....

2009-04-17T05:41:00.000-07:00

I hate the way I think about you,
I feel like I wanna go from here,
Move to the other part of life,
Placed in a serenity and peaceful world.

I hate the way you avoiding me,
Keep blaming on my actions,
Keep searching on my weaknesses,
Till I cannot breathe anymore.

I hate the way you corrected me,
As if you never make mistakes,
Perfect in all your ways,
Without any flaw and fault.

I hate the way I am now,
Cocooned in a mysterious world,
Confused in all the things I am doing,
Hurt with the imperfection inside me.

I hate the way when I am blurred,
Stuck in a terrible condition,
Cannot move neither progress,
To hold on my own dreams and desire.
azu201

A.TOUGH.WEEK.

2009-04-12T00:33:00.001-07:00

A very tough week for me.. a lot of things keep revolving in my head..betul ke revolving ni? cam salah jer..hihi

Problems which should not turn out to be problems pun boleh appear. Bila nak jadi kuat ni? Huhu..I had lots of assignments which need to be sent in. Alhamdulillah smuanya dah hantar..peritnya tuhan je yang tahu macam mana nak siapkan semua. Asyik tido lewat je..paling lewat tido pukul lima..Ada orang mesej tanya mesti dah tido nieh..tp it turned out to be tak tido lagi..Bangun tu dah pening2..tak penah-penah dalam sejarah hidup banyak benda jadi at the same time..menyeronokkan, menyakitkan...frustration, worried, feel like wanna be in other part of this world..

After dah sent in semua assignment,kena pegi sekolah mengajar literature..OMG!!dahla serabut tak abis lagi..takpe2..hidup mesti diteruskan..yeke wani?dalam hati tuhan je yang tahu..

Feel nice when students call me teacher..bukan rasa bangga..tapi seronok sebab rasa ada di dunia yang lain..haha..sekurang2nya boleh lupakan kejap benda2 yang tak penting...seronok dengan budak2..maybe cos i like kids..:)...tapi masyaAllah susahnya nak control..haha...like usual..lacking in throwing out my own voice...suara mcm dah nak pecah bila abis kelas..buat kena gelak dengan dayme je..haha...

Anyway..nice experience..students pun respect..tapi biasala..ada yang nak cari gaduh, mengusik..hmm..bukan senang nak jadi cikgu..selamatla anak orang...tp apa2 pun thats what we called experience..Alhamdulillah everything was under control..kalau sorang2 parah jugak ni..camne nak praktikum nieh?huhu..

Biasala macam2 perasaan datang bila dah tension n busy nieh..banyak benda yang jadi...kadang2 rsa mcm dh tak kuat..syukur ada orang yang still care n sudi dengar bila stress..mungkin ada hikmahnya...bukan semua orang boleh sacrifice bila nak dapat sesuatu..sesetengah orang senang2 je lepas tangan..itula kehidupan..dont hope too much..dont give too much expectation on something or someone..nanti diri sndiri yang merana..

Thanks to all of you who are still standing beside me..Thanks for your courage and supports..Love..
azu201

APA.KATA.HATI

2009-04-09T00:53:00.000-07:00

Apa kata hati,
Bila bersendiri,
Dan terus sepi,
Terasa ingin berlari,
Mencari-cari,
Warna pelangi,
Walau dalam mimpi,
Ku hargai,
Biar hanya sekali,
Kan ku syukuri.

Apa kata hati,
Bilakan ku pergi,
Menghadap Ilahi,
Terasa kerdilnya diri,
Ku akui,
Dia sentiasa di sisi,
Walau ku lari,
Usia makin melewati,
Batas-batas hari,
Mencari-cari,
Ketenangan abadi.

Apa kata hati,
Bila disakiti,
Bagai diracuni,
Perit tak terperi,
Terguris sendiri,
Akan ku tempuhi,
Sekali lagi,
Akan ku gagahi,
Moga diri diredhai.

Apa kata hati,
Ia bukan mimpi,
Ku fahami,
Takdir Ilahi,
Datang dan pergi,
Silih berganti,
Bangunlah kembali,
Tempuhi realiti,
Moga satu hari,
Kasihkan bersemi,
Mekar mewangi,
Di taman kasturi.
azu201

IN.JUST.ONE.NIGHT.

2009-04-04T22:31:00.000-07:00

In just one night,
People may be different,
Things might not be the same like usual,
Yet heart stays still without changes.

In just one night,
I lost my precious thought,
Kept in my mind for the whole day long
Lost to a person that I dote on.

In just one night,
Hope melts into pieces,
Strengths don't have any say to be strong,
Yet prayers doesn't get faded after all.

In just one night,
I still cannot find you in me,
I am searching for the one i know,
Yet you go away without any track

In just one night,
I can be another person to you,
Though it hurts me a lot,
Yet God is still with me.

In just one night,
I should say thank to you,
For bringing me to my own world,
Yet you are such a cruel man to me.

In just one night,
Disillusionment appears in the dark,
To get me awake from my dreams,
To come back to a reality.

In just one night,
I found myself still alive,
Contented with the things around me,
Yet trying hard to stand alone.
azu201

.......................

2009-04-02T05:19:00.000-07:00

Fighting has been enjoined upon you while it is hateful to you. But perhaps you hate a thing and it is good for you; and perhaps you love a thing and it is bad for you. And Allah knows, while you know not. [2:216]

Assalamualaikum.. I have put this verse from Al-Quran in my blog. Frankly speaking, it is not easy to apply what is stated there in our life. I am not sure about you but for me, it is one of the difficult things. We cannot deny anything that have been stated in Al-Quran as it is the Allah's words. We have to accept it without any doubt.

In certain condition, we might think it is not easy to accept especially when we are facing any obstacles or difficulties in life. Sometimes, we keep asking why all these things happen to us. We are not strong to face them especially when we have a lot of things to do at the same time. Believe me, it is so painful. Tears keep coming down from our eyes. At a certain point, we do no want it to happen anymore. We felt really tired after undergoing a lot of thinking and reflecting. What can be done after all of these happen to us? What can be done to stop the tears? How to tell others that we are in pain? It is such complicated things to be faced.

We always hope for a new day to come. When is it going to appear? Why is it still hiding under all of these sadness? Sometimes, we need more time to accept what has happened. We do not have any idea on what is going on. What should we do to face all the things? It is not easy to satisfy every person in our lives. For me, I do have my own dreams and desires to be fulfilled. However, it is not as simple as that to turn them into reality. Everything is in God's hand.

I just hope there will be no more tears for tomorrow though it might be impossible. Nonetheless, nothing is impossible in this world. Give me some courage and strengths to go through all these. I am not a powerful person with a strong heart..I do not know how long it will take to heal this pain. God...be with me..hold my heart...show me the right path...Amin Ya Rabbal A'lamin...

S.E.P.I

2009-03-29T07:20:00.000-07:00

Bila hati berbicara,
Tiada alunan kedamaian.
Hanya sepi tanpa kata,
Sakit bagai direntap,
Ditusuk sang sembilu,
Hidupkan kembali hati ini,
Kembalikan jiwaku yang mati,
Ku tak mampu menangkis,
Menepis arus realiti,
Dalam tangisan,
Dalam kepasrahan,
Dalam kesenduan..

Bangun dan terus melangkah,
Hanya igauan dalam mimpi,
Sekadar melata di bibir,
Dihembus angin lalu,
Setiap saat, setiap detik,
Disirami racun berbisa,
Hingga satu masa,
Ku tak mampu mendongak,
Mengejar impian mendatang,
Hanya debaran dalam sendu,
Hanya kepahitan menjengah di kalbu.

Fahamilah hati ini,
Selamilah jiwa ini,
Hidup ini bagaikan roda,
Moga ku tak terus mengalah,
Getaran penuh kepahitan,
Mengenang nasib mengubat luka,
Tiada siapa yang mengerti,
Untukku berpaut kembali,
Ku pasrah, Ku akur,
Semua terjadi di atas ketentuan,
Setiap yang datang pasti kan pergi,
Setiap yang pergi, pasti kan kembali,
Itulah ketentuan takdir,
Penentu Ya Ilahi..

Hingga satu masa,
Hilangnya kekuatan dalam diri,
Perginya kesabaran dalam hati,
Biar terus tersungkur tersimpul mati,
Biarlah ini sekadar fantasi,
Igauan di siang hari,
Ya Allah,
Kepadamu aku mengadu,
Meratap kasih,
Tiada yang memahami hati ini,
Walau pernah bersulam kasih,
Hanya diri ini,
Bertahan terus sendiri,
Bimbingi aku,
Temani daku,
Mengorak langkah,
Mengejar kebahagiaan,
Dikala kesuraman,
Menghimpit derita..
azu201

K.E.M.B.A.L.I.K.A.N.

2009-03-25T21:18:00.000-07:00

Muncullah sang pelangi,
Di kala awan mendung berlalu,
Mana mungkin ku mampu,
Menghalang takdir Mu,
Biar pedih tak terperi,
Aku akur dengan diri,
Mana hilangnya kewarasan,
Mana perginya kekuatan,
Ku tak mampu berdiri,
Menongkah gelombang lautan,
Untukku menuju daratan...

Ku harapkan petunjukMu,
Kembalikan ketenangan,
Pulangkan kebahagiaan,
Tika kala ini,
Diri meratap sayu,
Mengenang ketentuan,
Dalam keterpaksaan,
Ku tak mampu melangkah,
Rebah tak bermaya,
Hanya Dikau tempat ku mengadu,
Meratap,
Memohon,
Kaulah cahaya,
Dalam kegelapan ini...

Pergilah sepi,
Tinggalkan ku sendiri,
Pulangkan ketabahan,
Untukku teruskan hidup,
Moga masa depan,
Kan lebih sempurna,
Aku insan kerdil,
Tanpa kata,
Aku insan biasa,
Hanya memuja,
Kebesaran Tuhan-Nya,
Ya Allah,
Titipkan ku semangat,
Hulurkan ku Nur-Mu,
HidayahMu,

PetunjukMu,

Amin Ya Rabbal A'lamin...
azu201

H.U,R.T.

2009-03-24T06:56:00.000-07:00

If i can be with you,
I'm the luckiest person to be contented,
Given with an understanding person,
Who always be at my side,
Though life hurts,
Full of tragedy,
Full of mystery...

Sometimes,
Life is so unfair,
Just to fulfill,
One's desire,
It's hurt,
It's painful,
No help to ask,
Staying alone in misery...

Indeed,
Everything is fated,
God knows best,
My heart,
Just stay strong,
Be as tough as you can,
This is the only chance,
To survive as a human.
azu_201

T.E.M.A.N.

2008-12-09T11:20:00.001-08:00

Peritnya hati terkenangkan kenangan,
Memori indah kan ku simpan,
Senyum tawa hiasan perhubungan,
Rawan hati bukan lagi peneman.

Perpisahan yang tak dipinta,
Pertemuan yang tak diduga,
Menjadi ikatan pabila bersama,
Tersimpul rapi menjadi doa.

Pengorbanan bukan lagi jawapan,
Ikatan abadi dalam sisipan,
PadaNya doa ku panjatkan,
Moga termakbul menjadi kenyataan.

Detik masa yang berlalu,
Bukan lagi igauan ngilu,
Malah kini terus kuburu,
Menyemai hati dikala sendu.

Harapan bukan lagi angan-angan,
Kan ku genggam walau berpanjangan,
Bukti kesetiaan seorang peneman,
Mencurah kasih yang tidak berkesudahan.

Hadir diriku bukanlah mimpi,
Semuanya atas ketentuan Ilahi,
Rebutlah peluang terbuku dihati,
Moga hidup terus terisi.

Walau jauh beribu batu,
Namun impian tak pernah kaku,
Ayuh teman gagahkan dirimu,
Berjuang memohon padaNya yang satu.

Doa buatmu selalu kutitipkan,
Dalam meniti sebuah kehidupan,
Untukmu menggenggam secebis kejayaan,
Terlerai bersama sebuah kepulangan.

azu201

TERIMA.KASIH.KAWAN.

2008-11-28T19:27:00.000-08:00

Kawan,
Detik manis persahabatan,
Kenangan pahit kehidupan,
Kita lalui bersama,
Duka dalam riang,
Tawa dalam sendu,
Tangisan dalam gembira,
Suka dalam derita,
Biar dugaan datang melanda,
Tiada alasan untuk mencelah,
Sekadar meniti penuh pasrah,
Bukan bermakna untuk kalah,
Bukan jua mencipta helah,
Namun kan terus melangkah,
Berjuang dalam penuh payah,
Menolak segala keluh-kesah.

Kawan,
Terima kasih atas segalanya,
Moga diri sentiasa sejahtera,
Melawan ombak di atas bahtera,
Mencipta sebuah ceritera,
Hadirmu membawa sejuta makna,
Pergimu meninggal seribu peristiwa,
Yang pernah kita lalui bersama,
Setiap detik mengejar cita-cita,
Mengharap ehsan dari pencipta,
Doa kan ku titip sentiasa,
Moga suatu masa,
Kita masih mampu bersua,
Mengimbau kembali secebis cerita.

Kawan,
Maafkan daku dalam berkata,
Atas keterlanjuran dalam berbicara,
Aku hanya insan biasa,
Hadirku sekadar buat sementara,
Menjadi teman tanpa dipinta,
Bukan niatku mengharap harta,
Apatah lagi menghambur derita,
Aku akur atas segalanya,
Dengan setiap ketentuan Yang Esa,
Moga pengakhiran penuh selesa,
Setelah jasad hilang selamanya,
Hanya doa yang ku pinta,
Untuk kubawa temui Pencipta.
azu201

K.E.P.U.L.A.N.G.A.N

2008-11-27T13:15:00.000-08:00

Sesudah langkah pertama ku hayun,
Segala perih yang dulu ku simpan,
Untuk menunaikan secebis kewajipan,
Kini terlerai bersama harapan.

Segala penat lelah kini terurai,
Bukanlah peluang untukku santai,
Bukan jua jalan untukku lalai,
Masih banyak cabaran yang melambai.

Aku bersyukur penuh kesayuan,
Diberi peluang menatap keindahan,
Walau kadang tersemai kekecewaan,
Itulah lumrah setiap insan.

Bukanlah balasan yang ku pinta,
Sekadar kepuasan dalam derita,
Mengalirnya setitis air mata,
Meniti perjuangan mengejar cita-cita.

Terima kasih ayah dan ibu,
Mendorong kemahuan anakmu yang satu,
Kini jauh beribu batu,
Namun doa sentiasa berpadu.

Tunggukan kepulangan anakmu ini,
Moga pertemuan bukanlah mimpi,
Anakmu akur dengan ketentuan Ilahi,
Moga pelukan tersimpul mati.

Andai diri menjadi tanda tanya,
Terimalah anakmu dengan adanya,
Kugenggam kekuatan datang dariNya,
Bukan mainan di alam maya.
(azu201)

K.E.M.A.A.F.A.N.

2008-11-17T15:08:00.000-08:00

Kemaafan bukan untuk ditagih,
Bukan untuk disalah ertikan,
Yang mampu mengundang pedih,
Walau hanya sekadar ucapan.

Maaf itu lahirnya dari hati,
Yang tidak boleh dikongsi,
Bukan juga untuk ditangisi,
Bila sudah menjadi benci.

Letakkan kemaafan ditempat terpuji,
Bukan untuk dijual beli,
Namun sebagai suatu pengganti,
Pabila diri terasa dikhianati.

Senang untuk ucapkan maaf,
Dengan hanya sekali lafaz,
Namun ianya bukanlah permainan,
Untuk mengubat segala kekhilafan.

Sekali hati robek dicalari,
Kemaafan tidak berguna lagi,
Andai ianya telah terjadi,
Meranalah diri kemudian hari.

Kasih sayang sebagai pengubat,
Namun bukan yang terhebat,
Pabila benci terus menghambat,
Yang mudah menjadi lambat.

Hargailah setiap ucapan kemaafan,
Bukan untuk dikotak-katikkan,
Kerna ianya permata kehidupan,
Melakar impian dalam kesamaran.
azu201

M.A.M.P.U.K.A.H A.K.U

2008-11-17T14:11:00.000-08:00

Wanita Solehah
wanita solehah adalah..

wanita yg sentiasa menjaga kehormatan diri(menutup aurat)
meninggalkan larangan Allah,..
mengamalkan suruhan Allah..
yg manis senyumannya di saat suka dan duka..
yang ringan tangannya bersedekah
yang sedikit tidurnya untuk berborak dgn Tuannya di sepertiga mlm..
yang ikhlas hatinya mencari redha Allah..
yang ringan tangannya membantu sahabat2 dan saudara mara..
yang menyambung silaturrahim..
yang menjadi hamlatul quran(pendokong kitab quran)
yang rajin amalkan sunnahnya..
yang sentiasa berpuasa sekurang2nya 3 hari setiap bln

Wanita solehah itu aurat dijaga, Pergaulan dipagari, Sifat malu pengikat diri, Seindah hiasan di dunia ini.

Keayuan wanita solehah itu, tidak terletak pada kecantikan wajahnya , Kemanisan wanita solehah , tidak terletak pada kemanjaannya, Daya penarik wanita solehah itu , Bukan pada kemanisan bicaranya yang mengoncang iman para muslimin, Dan bukan pula terletak pada kebijaksanaannya bermain lidah, memujuk rayu , Bukan dan tidak sama sekali, Kepetahan wanita solehah , Bukan pada barang kemas atau perihal orang lain, Tapi pada perjuangannya meningkatkan martabat agama.

Nafsu mengatakan wanita cantik dengan paras rupa yang indah bak permata yang menyeri alam, Akal mengatakan wanita cantik atas kemajuan dan kekebalannya dalam ilmu serta pandai dari segala aspek , Hati menyatakan kecantikan wanita hanya pada akhlaknya, Itupun seandainya hati itu bersih untuk menilai.

Wahai wanita jangan dibangga dengan kecantikan luaran , kerana satu hari nanti ianya akan lapuk ditelan zaman, Tetapi jaga dan peliharalah kecantikan dalaman , Agar diri ini bersih dan sentiasa mendapat Rahmat Ilahi, Wahai wanita jangan berbangga dengan ilmu duniawi yang kau kuasai , kerana ada lagi manusia yang lebih berpengetahuan darimu , Wahai wanita jangan pula berdukacita atas kekurangan dirimu, kerana ada lagi insan yang lebih malang darimu , Wahai wanita solehah jangan dirisau akan jodohmu, Kerana muslimin yang bijaksana itu tidak akan terpaut pada wanita hanya kerana kecantikannya , Bersyukurlah di atas apa yang ada . Serta berusaha demi keluarga ,bangsa dan agama.
(PETIKAN DARI BLOG)
azu201

A.BEAUTIFUL.STORY.

2008-11-17T06:40:00.000-08:00

I was walking around in a BigBazar store making shopping, when I saw a Cashier talking to a boy couldn't have been more than 5 or 6 years old.

The Cashier said, 'I'm sorry, but you don't have enough money to buy this doll. Then the little boy turned to me and asked: 'aunty, are you sure I don't have enough money?'

I counted his cash and replied: 'You know that you don't have enough money to buy the dolll, my dear.' The little boy was still holding the doll in his hand.

Finally, I walked toward him and I asked him who he wished to give this doll to. 'It's the doll that my sister loved most and wanted so much Iwanted to Gift her for her BIRTHDAY.

I have to give the doll to my mommy so that she can give it to my sister when she goes there.' His eyes were so sad while saying this. 'My Sister has gone to be with God. Daddy says that Mommy is going to see God very soon too, so I thought that she could take the doll with her to give it to my sister.'

My heart nearly stopped. The little boy looked up at me and said: 'I told daddy to tell mommy not to go yet. I need her to wait until I come back from the mall.' Then he showed me a very nice photo of him where he was laughing. He then told me 'I want mommy to take my picture with her so my sister won't forget me.' 'I love my mommy and I wish she doesn't have to leave me, but daddy says that she has to go to be with my little sister.' Then he looked again at the doll with sad eyes, very quietly.

I quickly reached for my wallet and said to the boy. 'Suppose we check again, just in case you do have enough money for the doll?'

'OK' he said, 'I hope I do have enough.' I added some of my money to his with out him seeing and we started to count it. There was enough for the doll and even some spare money.

The little boy said: 'Thank you God for giving me enough money!' Then he looked at me and added, 'I asked last night before I went to sleep for God to make sure I had enough money to buy this doll, so that mommy could give It to my sister. He heard me!' 'I also wanted to have enough money to buy a white rose for my mommy, but I didn't dare to ask God for too much. But He gave me enough to buy the doll and a white rose. My mommy loves white roses.'

I finished my shopping in a totally different state from when I started.

I couldn't get the little boy out of my mind. Then I remembered a local news paper article two days ago, which mentioned a drunk man in a truck, who hit a car occupied by a young woman and a little girl. The little girl died right away, and the mother was left in a critical state.

The family had to decide whether to pull the plug on the life-sustaining machine, because the young woman would not be able to recover from the coma. Was this the family of the little boy?

Two days after this encounter with the little boy, I read in the news paper that the young woman had passed away.. I couldn't stop myself as I bought a bunch of white roses and I went to the funeral home where the body of the young woman was exposed for people to see and make last wishes before her burial. She was there, in her coffin, holding a beautiful white rose in her hand with the photo of the little boy and the doll placed over her chest. I left the place, teary-eyed, feeling that my life had been changed for ever.

The love that the little boy had for his mother and his sister is still, to this day, hard to imagine. And in a fraction of a second, a drunk driver had taken all this away from him.

Please DO NOT DRINK & DRIVE.
(taken from GUNA :P)
azu201

SEKADAR.FANTASI.BUKAN.REALITI.

2008-11-12T15:35:00.000-08:00

Berarak mendung dikala siang,
Hati sayu jauh terkenang,
Ku tak mahu memori terus berulang,
Harapan masih tinggi menjulang,
Walau diri pernah kecundang.

Ku tahu impian bukan persoalan,
Walau pahit harus ku telan,
Berlalu hari berganti bulan,
Bertahun bukan satu halangan,
Moga termakbul menjadi kenyataan.

Diri hanya mampu merancang,
Walau perit tak pernah hilang,
Diliputi bara diselaputi bahang,
Walau tujuan masih rambang,
Ku tahu hidup harus berjuang.

Melangkah dengan penuh kekuatan,
Darimu ku pinta buat sisipan,
Pimpini daku atasi kelemahan,
Moga tak rebah ditinggal zaman,
Untuk ku simpan jadi kenangan.

Andai hati tak mampu bersatu,
Tempatkan aku dalam dirimu,
Walau sakit menanggung rindu,
Moga ianya takkan berlaku,
Dengan adanya iringan restu.

Salam kasih madah bersemi,
Bukan niatku jadi begini,
Walau permulaan sakit terperi,
Ia bukanlah suatu mimpi,
Untuk kutepis pabila terjadi.

Moga usaha menjadi bekalan,
Terus melangkah jauh ke depan,
Dua hati menyimpan harapan,
Moga ianya bukan angan-angan,
Genggamlah ia ukirkan kenyataan.
azu201

SEKADAR.PUISI.

2008-11-09T04:10:00.000-08:00

Maaf ku pinta,
Kehadiranku hanya sebentar cuma,
Selagi hayat masih ada,
Kutagihkan kasih curahan setia,
Hingga pada satu masa,
Pabila ku tutupkan mata,
Dikala bayu melewati senja,
Kenangkan diri ku selamanya,
Moga doamu kujadikan harta.
Untuk kubawa menemui Pencipta.

Terima kasih sayang,
Pertemuan yang tak diundang,
Yang langsung tidak kubayang,
Sekelip mata ianya datang,
Tak mampu untukku halang,
Ku bersyukur tidakku tentang,
Hadirmu sebagai pejuang,
Kata hati tidakku larang,
Ku sambut dengan lapang,
Moga kukuh untukku sandang.

azu201
-sekadar ilham dari 'aku punya kamu'-

P.E.R.T.E.M.U.A.N.

2008-11-05T13:46:00.000-08:00

Malam..
Ketemukan aku dengan siang,
Bukan niatku melupakan bintang,
Sekadar mencari kenangan yang hilang,
Walau ia dikatakan usang.

Hujan..
Ketemukan aku dengan pelangi,
Menyinari kembali hariku yang sepi,
Ku harap ianya bukanlah mimpi,
Untukku gapai dikala dinihari.

Angin..
Ketemukan aku dengan lambaianmu,
Terusap lembut melewati waktu,
Terusik sayu terus membisu,
Sedar asalku dari yang Satu.

Sayang..
Ketemukan aku dengan kasih,
Kembalikan semangat untukku pulih,
Ku tak mahu terus tersisih,
Pilu hati mengenangkan sedih.

Hati...
Ketemukan aku dengan cinta,
Bukan untuk membuatku buta,
Namun tersisip sebagai harta,
Untuk ku hulur pada Pencipta.

Bulan..
Ketemukan aku dengan bintang,
Ingin ku gapai langit gemilang,
Walau harapan payah ku tatang,
Ku tahu impian sukar ditentang.
azu201

MY.DREAM.WEDDING.

2008-11-03T05:49:00.001-08:00

I've been tagged by hani but I havent realised bout it until she told me..haha..sorry hani..anyway..the questions are so challenging..haha..something related to 'my dream wedding'..what should i answer?..'wink wink'

1.How old are you?
I'm 23 years old..not that old right..

2. Are you single?
Like hani said, i'm not married yet..

3. In what age do you think you’ll get married?
hmm..depends on my 'jodoh'..we have to come out with a decision i guess..not just based on one opinion..

4. Do you think you’ll be marrying the person you are with now??
God knows..have i found my Mr Right????

5. If not, who do you want to marry?
Whoever wanna marry me..haha..based on certain criteria..im not that fussy but still i have to live with him for the whole of my life...:)

6. Do you want a garden/beach wedding, or the traditional wedding?
I like a beach wedding..a very tranquil day..with a sound of waves..but please..no tsunami..:)..if not i just prefer to have a traditional wedding..especially the costumes..this is just a dream..if it can become a reality,i would be very glad to enjoy the ceremony and be the happiest bride..

7. Your ideal motif?
im not sure bout this. just a simple ceremony..but very meaningful to the guests and my families (including my in law)hehe.something that can be remembered for the whole of my life especially.

8. Where do you plan to go on a honeymoon?
well..maybe an island..or maybe on a cruise..hehe...depends on budget..

9. How many guests do you think you’ll invite?
my families, friends, my parents' friends..maybe quite a lot cos im the oldest among my siblings..but who knows if 'langkah bendul' happen to me..:)

10. Do you want an extravagant wedding or a simple wedding?
hmm..not that extravagant..something that can be remembered especially with the one who you love. simple but nice..

11. Do you want the traditional vows or something you’d make up on your own??
depends on a decision between me n him...

12. How many layers of cake do you want to have?
two should be enough..even one i still can accept..not a big deal to me...

13. Do you prefer having your reception at a hotel or at a simple place?
in my house..hehe

14. When do you want to get married, evening or morning?
nikah should be in the morning i guess..a fresh day to start...

15. You’d rather have your reception outdoors or indoors?
depends...

16. Do you like a grand entrance for your groom/bride?
haha..nice question..i nak kawin dgn anak raja ke?huhu..

18. Name the song/tune you’d like played at your wedding??
maybe we should agree on one song..something that can remind us on our relationship..;)

19. Are you a morning person or a night person?
in between..:)

20. Do you want a solemn ceremony or a light one?
just a light one i guess...but maybe a little bit of custom takes place..

21. What age do you want to get married?
dont know..haha..da smpai seru kawinla..

22. Describe your ideal husband/wife.
someone who can complement me and be part of my life.

23. Do you prefer fine dining or just the normal spoon & fork/knife?
both..if not used to use hands, then use fork and spoon..as simple as that..:)

24. champagne or red wine?
hoho..mango boley..:)

25. Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
haha...something to ponder...

26. Money or household item?
depends..love to have both...tamak giler...:)

27. Who will pay for the bills?
will try my best to use my money..but of course need some help from my parents..byk tu..tak mampu kot nk byr smua..huhu

28. Are you ready for married life?
thinking of my condition now, just wait till i finish my study and find a right time to deal with him..if i have one laaaa kannn...

29. Do u think you will still be a virgin until u get married?
of course..hehe

30. Will u always be true to your wife/husband
InsyaAllah..

31. How many kids do u like?
depends on condition..depends on 'rezeki'...

32. A new house for a newly wed or an old one?
i dont mind bout this as long as we can live happily ever after..insyaAllah..mmgla fairy stories kan hani..haha

33. Will u celebrate silver wedding, gold wedding, or diamond wedding?
never heard bout this before..sma je smuanya..as long as im happy with him and my children.iAllah..

34. What kind of cuisine would u like for ur wedding?
haha..klo tanya soalan ni..smpai esok tak abis list..hehe..just simple one lar..klo dlm dream nak gak yg ada seafood....best kot..haha...

35. Will u record ur honeymoon in a cd or dvd?
ask someone to record and take the photos..one of the precious moments right?bkn kawin hari2..:)

thats just a dream..if it turned to a reality, it would be nice to go through it...whatever it is, im contented with what I have..hope i can find someone who can be with me for the whole of my life..pray for me yeahhh..hehe..wslm

IF.I.COULD.CHOOSE.YOU.

2008-10-30T13:54:00.000-07:00

If I could choose you,
Things might be different,
Life might be easier,
As we might be together.

If I could choose you,
I won't dare to go beyond our promise,
I won't afraid to ask for forgiveness,
I won't avoid to stay close to your heart.

If I could choose you,
Being together is something,
Facing difficulties is nothing,
Searching for happiness is everything.

If I could choose you,
Let Him fulfil our desire,
Let Him decide what is the best for us,
Let Him lead us to the right path.

If I could choose you,
I would be contented with what I have,
You are such a luxurious gift,
Such a precious moment in my life.

If I could choose you,
Don't go away from my heart,
Please stay close in my mind,
Don't let us fall apart.

If I could choose you,
Nothing can express my gratitude,
As satisfaction is everything,
For what He has given to me.
azu201
-201203-

A.K.U.

2008-10-27T12:49:00.000-07:00

Aku tetap aku,
Walau tidak sesempurna Khadijah,
Namun mampu mengukir kata,
Menyemai secebis senyuman,
Walau tidak semanis Zulaikha..

Aku tetap aku,
Walau tidak sebijak Ai'syah,
Namun masih ada fikiran,
Memikir sejenak kehidupan,
Walau tidak setabah Mariam.

Aku tetap aku,
Walau hanya insan kerdil,
Namun tetap mendamba kasihMu,
Memohon secangkir restu,
Mengiringi hari-hariku.

Aku tetap aku,
Walau bukan srikandi pejuang,
Namun tak bermakna tak mampu menentang,
Musuh utama bukan penyerang,
Namun nafsu diri yang bersarang.

Aku tetap aku,
Walau dugaan terus mendatang,
Tiada kuasa untukku menghalang,
Walau sakit menempuh bahang,
Itulah takdir hidup seseorang.

Aku tetap aku,
Gapai tanganku dikala gusar,
Heretlah aku dikalaku tersasar,
Itulah ujian walaupun sukar,
Mengharap redhaMu mogaku tegar.

azu201

C.E.R.I.T.A.

2008-10-18T12:24:00.000-07:00

Hidup ini ibarat cerita,
Ibarat pelayaran meniti masa,
Dilambung badai tatkala derita,
Dilambai angin peneman setia,
Semua atas kehendak Yang Esa.

Hidup ini ibarat cerita,
Penuh coretan dibalik sengsara,
Mengejar impian menggapai cahaya,
Menggenggam kenangan terpalit dijiwa,
Moga tersimpan tersisip selamanya.

Hidup ini ibarat cerita,
Bukan igauan bukan kebetulan,
Permulaan kisah penuh percaturan,
Hanya kekuatan sebagai dorongan,
Mengharungi onak penuh pengharapan.

Hidup ini ibarat cerita,
Tersembunyi hikmah sang Pencipta,
Tiada bandingan nilai dan harta,
Tersisip kenangan setiap manusia,
Mengharap sinar kan terus menjelma.

Hidup ini ibarat cerita,
Semuanya diatas satu ketentuan,
Menadah keampunan di hujung pengakhiran
Memohon kasih disebalik impian,
Moga termakbul terukir kenyataan.
azu201

A.W.A.Y.

2008-10-12T15:12:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum and Hi everyone,

I just wanna drop a few words here. Today is my last day working in Peninsular Treatment Centre as a 'domestic assistant' or generally known as 'cleaner'. Lots of memories and experience will stay close in my mind and my heart. Working with other people teaches me to be patient and understanding. It is not easy to deal with people especially when you are in bad mood or having problems in your study or life. Working taught me a lot of things. Working made me to be a strong person and working sometimes made me to forget my problems.

I realised that money cannot buy everything. Sometimes we have to sacrifice certain things in order to achieve something. I never regret being a cleaner in this country. I went to Europe using my own money, buy everything here using my own salary.

The saddest part was when one of the lovely persons in that hospital nearly dropped his tears when I was going. I was so touched with his reaction. His name is Berry. A nice and lovely person. Always help us in any situation. Will miss you Berry. Thanks for everything.

Not forgotten, my colleagues, Anne, Emy and Emma. I worked with them before I chose to work on weekend shifts. Thank you for everything especially for the card and presents. And lastly, my weekend's supervisor, Rae, thank you for your understanding when I really need a leave during the Eid. Will miss you all so much.:(

Thanks to GOD for this opportunity. Being alone in other part of this world without my beloved ones, teaches me to be a human being. Alhamdulilah, I am still the same 'Azuani' and hope to be the same person for the whole of my life. Thanks to all of you for loving me and understanding me. I appreciate your kindness. With lots of love, hugs and kisses....
azu201

To love is nothing.
To be loved is something.
To love, and be loved, is everything.
azu201

H.A.R.A.P.A.N.

2008-10-11T13:03:00.000-07:00

Damai,
Tenang,
Syukur,
Tiada kata seindah pertemuan,
Tiada bicara semanis persahabatan,
Moga hari-hari berlalu,
Kan menjelma kemanisan,
Dek perjalanan kasih,
Meniti lautan harapan.

Ya Allah,
Berikan aku kekuatan,
Menempuh batasan kehidupan,
Aku redha dengan ujianMu,
Aku pasrah dengan ketentuanMu,
Ku mengharapkan kasihMu,
Tuk menggapai sejuta impian,
PadaMu ku akur,
PadaMu ku pohon,
Ya Rabbal A'lamin.
azu201

R.E.Q.U.E.S.T.

2008-10-10T14:35:00.000-07:00

VIENNA

VIENNA,AUSTRIA

VENICE, ITALY

PRAGUE, CZECH REPUBLIC

PRAGUE

ZAGREB,CROATIA

GONDOLA, VENICE

M.A.M.P.U.K.A.H.

2008-10-08T12:44:00.000-07:00

Hidup ini satu pertaruhan,
Bukan mimpi bukan angan-angan,
Hanya masa yg menentukan,
Erti kehidupan seorang insan,
Merentas setiap persoalan,
Untuk megejar satu jawapan,

Bila hati bertanya,
Pabila lidah berbicara,
Ke mana arah tujunya,
Di mana harusku bermula,
Mengejar impian yang nyata.

Mampukah diri ini,
Mampukah jiwa ini,
Mampukah hati ini,
Meredah kegelisahan malam,
Merungkai persoalan yang kelam,
Menangkis kisah-kisah silam.

Ingin ku melangkah,
Ingin ku menadah,
Moga kentalnya hati,
Mengejar cinta yang abadi,
Di sebalik kelemahan diri,
Menggapai sang pelangi,
Mewarnai hari-hari yang sepi.

Ku pohon padaMu,
Kekuatan diri,
Ketabahan hati,
Kemantapan rohani,
Moga ku mampu berdiri,
Mengejar mimpi,
Menjadi realiti.

Pimpini daku dalam doamu,
Iringi daku dalam bicaramu,
Hanya Dia pengubat hati,
Hanya padaMu ku tangisi,
Moga hari-hari yang berlalu,
Membawa makna yang bererti,
Ku harapkan kasihMu,
Ku pohon keampunanMu,
Kurniakan ku MaghrifahMu,
Ya Rabbal Ya A'lamin.
azu201

E.A.S.T.E.R.E.G.G.

2008-09-28T16:23:00.001-07:00

F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

2008-09-26T21:26:00.001-07:00

Sebaik-baik sahabat adalah sahabat yang mampu berdiri teguh di samping kita di kala kesusahan,
Yang mampu mengalir air mata pabila kita di dalam kesedihan,
Yang mampu ketawa berkongsi kebahagian dan kegembiraan,
Yang mampu menghulur tangan di kala kesepian,
Yang mampu berkongsi segala penderitaan dan kenangan,
Yang mampu membimbing kita mengenal Tuhan,
Sebaik-baik sahabat adalah sahabat yg datangnya tidak diundang, perginya ibarat lenyap satu kemanisan..
azu201

C.O.N.T.E.N.T.E.D

2008-09-26T03:55:00.000-07:00

Salam and Hi everyone..

Alhamdulilah I feel relieved and happy with my life. Being a human being make me realised the importance of using all the opportunities given to achieve a successful life. InsyaAllah. Though there are so many tests and obstacles that we have to face, there is no excuse for us to look back and regret with what has happened. Time will heal everything. Sometimes, life is so painful and unfair till we feel hopeless and tired. To a certain extent, there is no more things that we can hope anymore. Whatever it is, we have to be contented with what we have. I realised it is easy to say, but it can be the worst thing ever to face in a reality. Nevertheless, always remeber the best moments in our lives as they are still something left for us to be valued and treasured. Thank God , as I am still the same person. I do change but I hope the changes will make me become a better person.

Berkali jatuh hingga tersungkur,
Tertiarap akur menyembah bumi,
Mendongak ke langit memohon erti,
Memanjat keampunan padaNya di sisi,
Rasa kehambaan menyelimuti diri,
Ayuh terus bangun kembali,
Bersiap pada kehidupan yg abadi

Titipkan semangat kasih bersemi,
Mengorak langkah penuh beerti,
Mengharap mentari terus menyinari,
Melindungi awan yg kelam dan sepi,
Hulurkan tangan iringi daku,
Sisipkan untukku dalam doamu,
Di kala menghadap pada yg satu,
Moga diriku tenang selalu.

And upon Allah is the direction of the [right] way, and among them [i.e:the various paths] are those deviating. And if HE willed, He could have guided you all. (An-Nahl:16)
azu201

E.T.E.M.S.

2008-09-24T08:55:00.000-07:00

Salam and Hi everyone,

I feel like writing something today. This is about one of the lessons that I went through. It's about teaching Maths and Science in English. Actually, this is one of the hot issues occurs in Malaysia. Before this, I assume that it is quite difficult for teachers to teach Maths and Science in English especially for newcomers like me. It also applies to the experienced teachers who never teach Maths and Science in English as they have gone through the old system for years. It is a pity for these teachers as they have to be trained and learnt new things and improve their proficiency in English. Becoming a teacher for primary school students is a hard job. We are not only teaching the students but also trying our best to make them understand and apply what they have learnt in the real life situations.

For me, there are some advantages and disadvantages if Science and Maths are taught in English. I can see there are a lot of problems for suburban students and those who come from low-social economy background. They are not exposed to English compared to students who stay in urban areas. I'm not trying to generalise this statement. There are some students who live in urban areas but still have a low proficiency in English. I am sure they have to struggle very hard in order to cope with the new system. I pointed out this question in class. Fortunately, I got a great respond from Mike, my lecturer. He said it is not impossible to train these students especially who are from rural areas in learning Science and Maths in English.

The major issue here is not the abilities of the students though it might be one of the important factors in achieving the target. It relates to teachers' proficiency in delivering the knowledge in classroom. Besides that, by using materials in classroom is hoped to support the teachers' teaching processes in making the lesson more interesting and meaningful. He said it is possible for the rural's students to achieve the target as teaching ways and approaches are different from traditional approaches. I am surprised with what he had said as I did not think about that before and I did not see how things can work especially for slow learners.

Now, I feel more confident if I was given an opportunity to teach both subjects in English. I hope I can face all the difficulties though they might challenge me in a lot of aspects such as my patience and my credibility. A noble teacher who is the one who can face obstacles without ever trying to give up. It is not easy to build a nation if we do not have courage and spirit to educate our new generation.
azu201

S.Y.U.K.U.R.

2008-09-22T12:07:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum..

Today is my first day of class after having two months of holiday..Dragging myself to class is the worst thing ever..I'm so lazy to start everything again especially in learning about education..haha..but what can I do..That's my choice and will always be part of my life. I feel relieved today. I realised that anything happens around me will gain my strength in facing that matters. I hope so as it is not easy to face everything in one time. Lately, there are a lot of things occur. Sometimes, I do feel very down. Alhamdulilah, Allah is still with me and He gives someone to show me the ways.
When I am in bad conditions, I really cannot think. My mind is empty and I cannot judge the matter in the best way. I cannot decide what is the best for me. I cannot focus on everything. Whatever it is, life must go on. I have to face the obstacles and survive for my own good. Thank you for being with me. I dont have anything to give but I will always pray for your success. May Allah grants you with His blessings and happiness.
azu201

H.I.M.

2008-09-19T12:29:00.000-07:00

It is Allah Who created you in a state of (helpless) weakness, then gave (you) strength after weakness, then, after strength, gave (you) weakness and a hoary head: He creates as He wills, and it it He who has all knowledge and power. (Ar-Rum:54)

I always remind myself to depend on Allah all the time. However, it is difficult as I am only a weak human being especially when I face difficulties in life. It is undeniable that I always try to depends to people around me. For instance, when we are in love, ask ourselves...Do we talk to Allah when we are in terrible circumstances? Do we depend on Him? We always talk and pour our feelings to someone who is really close to us. Sometimes, we nearly forget that we belong to Him. He never forget us as small creatures in this world. He knows everything about us. He knows what are the best for us.

When we are sad, worried and frustrated, we always forget to ask for His help and guidance. I remind myself and all of you, life is not permanent. It is only a place for us to worship Him and do good deeds. We should crave for paradise rather than get punished in hell. Na'uzubillah..

Ya Allah, give me strength and guidance in what I am doing. Lead me to the right path. Shower me with your blessings. Amin Ya Rabbal A'lamin..
azu201

C.E.R.I.T.A.

2008-09-18T21:01:00.000-07:00

(Picture ni hanya hiasan semata-mata..takde kaitan dengan apa yg sy tulis..hihi...)

Assalamualaikum..

Arini awal sy bngun yer...Lately ni nape ntah malas sgt nak buat blog ni..Klo yg perasan tu,mang kejap ade kejap takde..cam biskut chipsmore lakz..er...yeke chipsmore? Arini sy nak kongsi stu bnda dgn smua..Ade sorg kawan sy ni bagi 'kata-kata' yg agak menarik...Sy siap kta dekat dia lg, boley buat lirik ni..huhu..but believe me, it was so meaningful to me especially as a Muslim in this world..Jeng jeng jeng...This is the 'quotation' that I believe might open your eyes if you think it is meaningful to you as well...

Before that, sy just tanya dia, boley ke kita tgk wayang ni..Dia ni berilmu la jgak..walaupun slalu merendah dri..pastu dia pun tundakan doa soalan tu..then dia bg sy email sbb sy dah tido waktu tu..ahakz..tula lambat sgt replykan. Nak thu dia balas apa? Lebey kurg camnila...

Seorang mukmin yang benar-benar bertakwa dikehendaki menjaga kakinya dari menuju ke tempat-tempat maksiat dan lain-lain yang tidak diredai oleh Allah. Adalah haram baginya menggunakan kakinya untuk menuju ke tempat maksiat seperti panggung wayang dan lain-lain.

pada sy yg lemah ni pula (sy tak taula tapi byk kurang gak n lemah)..kaitan yg ust berikan ini..adalah tempat dan perbuatan manusia..tempat bukan kesalahan..tapi di sana wujud maksiat spt perhimpunan lelaki perempuan secara bebas..tayangan filem yang tak baik..dan sebagainya..jadi jikalau sy..sy amik pendekatan harus jika berdasarkan apa yang kita tgk tu di rasakan bukan salah..tapi majoriti kebanyakan wayang or filem tu kotor..jika wayang tu bersesuaian..dan bersama teman dan saudara..mungkin di bolehkan sbb kita bukan berbuat maksiat..asalkan wayang itu bersih..tapi mana ada kan..tambahan g panggung pun jadi tmpt maksiat..erm..wallahu a'lam..

After bagi ni, then dia sruh sy fikir..bab-bab fikir ni yg susah sket sbb dah penat fikir..huhu..skarang ni dalam otak smua nya bnda pasal dissy...mmg naik dizzy sy fikir pasal dissy ni..tapi takpela dah org sruh fikir then kta pun fkirla..pastu sy tanyala..kalau masuk cinema tu tak buat apa, setakat tgk crita je, salah ke? then dia jwb, tgk cerita tu mcm mna..skrg ni byk cerita yg dah tak ikut sempadan yang sepatutnya..Maknanya kalau dlm Islam tu, cerita tu kira salahla..then dia ckp, niat tak menghalalkan cara..Sy pun terdiam jgak buat sejenak..betul jugak ayat dia ni...

Tapi sy tahu bkn sng kan nak trima bla kta dah biasa dengan keadaan macam tu. Alhamdulilah ada sesetengan dripada kita yg masih memahami dan mengamalkan apa yg sepatutnya kita buat sebagai seorang Muslim. Harap-harap anda smua boley berfikir sejenak dengan apa yg dimaksudkan dgn penjelasan di atas.

Haish..dah lari topik ni..nak ckp bnda lain,tekeluar bnda lain..ok..bebalik kepada 'quotation' tadi tu...This is the quotation that I promised to show you...Have a look at it and open your mind, your heart and your soul to interpret it in your own ways..everyone has their rights to think about it...

" hidup ini umpama cerita... binalah ceritamu laksana seseorang yang penuh dengan kejayaan dan kebahagiaan... selagi ada waktu... perbaiki dan hiasilah ceritamu agar menjadi satu riwayat kehidupan yg terbaik, menjadi sebutan dan kenangan, tersisip padamu doa mereka sepanjang zaman "

What do you think? Life is like a story? Is it true..for me it is indeed...Kita lah penulis yg akan mencoret kisah kehidupan kita sndiri.. Setiap bait-bait perkataan melambangkan keperibadian kita, pengalaman hidup dan perjalanan seorang khalifah di muka bumi ini..setiap orang impikan kebahagiaan dan kejayaan..namun kadang-kadang kita tersungkur..kadang-kadang kita gagal..kadang-kadang kita terlalu leka dgn keindahan duniawi padahal kehidupan ukhrawi itu adalah kehidupan yg hakiki dan abadi..Apa yang sy coretkan di sini adalah sebagai peringatan buat dri sy dan smua..Bukan mudah untuk kita melakar kehidupan yang sempurna kerana fitrah diri manusia itu sendiri tidak sempurna..

Bukan mudah untuk kita mencapai kebahagiaan dan kejayaan dengan sekelip mata kerana smuanya memerlukan pengorbanan dan usaha yg berterusan..istiqamah dalam melaksanakan apa jua perkara...yang menentukan hanyala Allah yang satu..hanya Dia yg mampu memberi segala yang ada di muka bumi ini untuk kita..kdg kala kita terlupa dunia ini hanya sementara..pantasnya detik waktu ibarat tiada kesan di dalam diri...Sy mengharapkan kita smua mampu melakar dan mencoret kisah atau cerita tentang kehidupan pada tahap yang terbaik..InsyaAllah..Setiap yg berlaku pasti ada hikmahnya...

Kawan sy jga turut mengingatkan sy, syurga ini milik kita..hanya Allah yg dapat memberi kepada sesiapa sahaja yg Dia kehendaki..Maka berusahala untuk merperolehinya..Biar pun kita terkandas, kita gagal sebelum ini, tp cubalah untuk megejar syurga yg mmg dijanjikan utk kita..InsyaAllah Allah Maha Pengampun dan Maha Penyayang...Yang baik itu dtg dr Allah dan yang buruk itu dr kelemahan sy sendiri..Yg baik ambil sebagai pegangan dan yg buruk itu jdikan sbg sempadan...wasalam..
azu201

B.A.B.E.S

2008-09-16T13:42:00.001-07:00

CREDIT TO WARID..

R.A.M.A.D.H.A.N.

2008-09-16T09:16:00.000-07:00

Didnt write anything for quite a long time. I dont have any mood to write on my blog or maybe I dont have anything to tell. I got a parcel from my mum last two weeks. I was so excited reading my brother's kad raya to me...so tooouuuchhingggg..huhu....almost cry..everything also wanna cry wani...hmm...but it was really touching when someone who you love gave you something...i didnt see him almost two years. he must be taller than me now...enel!!!kakwani rindu enel so much...my mom send me variety of kuih raya and baju raya as well...meriah la raya thun ni..huhu...rindunya dkt diorg..cant wait to meet them soon...for this Ramadhan, im trying my best to be strong enough in everything..but sometimes i do fall again and again..Its not easy to fight with ur nafsu you know...believe me..its even harder compared to other months...I wanna wish all of you selamat berpuasa...maaf salah n silap...raya dtgla umah..hehe...
azu201

B.I.C.A.R.A.H.A.T.I.

2008-08-28T07:17:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum..

I just received a shocked news from Malaysia. My aunt's father has just passed away. Even though I dont really know him well, he is still part of my family as my uncle is my mother's brother. It is not easy for my aunt to face all this even it applies to all people in this world. Losing our beloved one will give a big impact to us and our life. Whatever it is, we have to face it with strong heart and God knows what is the best for us. People always want to run away from thinking about death. That is part of our life. Sometimes, I just ponder about myself. What about my iman? What about my sins? I know that i am not perfect and do a lot of mistakes. I just hope this coming Ramadhan will teach me a lot of things such as being patient and tawadu' to Him. I dont know either I will meet other Ramadhan. Ya Allah...Give me some strengths to fight with my lust and my bad intention! I know that I am weak in everything.

Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku,
Ampuni daku di atas segala keterlanjuranku,
Samaada dlm perbuatanku,
tutur bicaraku,
Kadang kala aku hanyut,
Aku alpa dengan keindahan dunia,
Bimbinglah aku di jalanMu,
Tunjukkan aku kebenaran,
Jalan-jalan yang lurus,
Untuk ku terus bersujud kepada Mu,
Untuk ku terus mengharungi hidup ini,
Ku tahu,
Dunia hanya pinjaman semata-mata,
Andai aku leka dlm mengejar duniawi,
Engkau sedarkan Aku Ya Allah,
Aku tak layak untuk meminta kepada Mu,
Namun aku pasti,
Akan ketentuan Mu,
Akan pengampunan Mu,
Bimbinglah aku,
Moga aku sentiasa berada di jalanMu,
Moga Ramadhan kali ini,
Akan membawa sinar ketenangan,
Moga aku mampu terus tabah,
Menempuhi dugaan Mu..
Amin Ya Rabbal A'lamin...
azu201

T.O.U.C.H.I.N.G.

2008-08-21T07:19:00.000-07:00

When she walks away from you mad

===[ Follow her]

When she stares at your lips

===[ Kiss her ]

When she pushes you or hits you

===[ Grab her and don’t let go ]

When she starts cursing at you

===[ Kiss her and tell her you love her ]

When she's quiet

===[ Ask her what’s wrong]

When she ignores you

===[ Give her your attention ]

When she pulls away

==[ Pull her back ]

When you see her at her worst

===[ Tell her she's beautiful ]

When you see her start crying

==[Just hold her and don’t say a word ]

When you see her walking

==[ Sneak up and hug her waist from behind ]

When she's scared

===[ Protect her ]

When she lays her head on your shoulder

===[ Tilt her head up and kiss her ]

When she steals your favorite hat

==[ Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night]

When she teases you

===[ Tease her back and make her laugh ]

When she doesn’t answer for a long time

===[ reassure her that everything is okay ]

When she looks at you with doubt

==[ Back yourself up with the TRUTH ]

When she says that she likes you

==[ she really does more than you could understand ]

When she grabs at your hands

===[ Hold hers and play with her fingers ]

When she bumps into you

===[ bump into her back and make her laugh ]

When she tells you a secret

===[ keep it safe and untold ]

When she looks at you in your eyes

===[ don’t look away until she does ]

WHEN SHE MISSES YOU

===[ SHES HURTING INSIDE]

When you break her heart

===[ the pain NEVER really goes away ]

When she says its over

===[ she STILL wants you to be hers ]

When she repost this bulletin

===[ she wants you to read it ]

- Stay on the phone with her even if she’s not saying anything

-DON'T let her have the last word

-always call her when u know somethings wrong

-Pretty and beautifull is soo much better...NOT HOT

- Say you love her more than she could ever love you

- Argue that she is the best girl ever

- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go

- When she says she's ok don’t believe it, talk with her

- because 10 yrs later she'll remember you

- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her

- Call her before you sleep and after you wake up

- Treat her like she's all that matters to you

- Tease her and let her tease you back

-Stay up all night with her when she's sick

- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think its stupid

- Give her the world

- When she's bored and sad, hang out with her

- Let her know she's important

- Kiss her in the pouring rain

- When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is;"Who's ass am I kicking today baby?"

I got this mesage from one of my best friend. She asked me to read the whole story. I thought it didnt really capture my attention. Nonetheless, it was so touching. Tears nearly dropped from my eyes. Was I being too emotional? But it really made me wanna cry...Everybody admires someone who can understand and care about us. It is not easy as humans are not perfect. I believe that God will complete our journey of lives with someone who can be our friend, our partner and our soul. To find a person who love us is easy yet to find a person who wanna be with us all the time, going through all the hardships is not that simple.

'O mankind, fear your Lord, who created you from one soul and created from it its mate and dispersed from both of them many men and women. And fear Allah , though whm you ask one another, and the wombs. Indeed Allah is ever, over you, and Observer.' (An Nisa:1)

S.U.M.M.E.R.T.R.I.P.S

2008-08-21T05:06:00.000-07:00

Pisa, Italy

Spain

Milan

Cruise Roma, Italy

Alhambra, Spain

Sevilla, Spain

Wien, Austria

Venice, Italy

Mesquita, Spain

Zagreb, Croatia

Wien, Austria

Swiss Choc

These are some of the photos from my summer trips. I have promised to download the photos before right. The memory was filled with laughter, sadness, worrier, nervousness, happiness and all kind of feelings. We faced all the mix emotions together. Maybe this trip is the last trip for us as after this we hardly to get time and having fun like what we did during the trip.We will be having our own lives and all of us will be very busy with our careers. Hopefully, we can still keep in touch and the memories will remain forever in our hearts and minds.

azu201

N.U.K.I.L.A.N

2008-08-20T12:33:00.000-07:00

aku insan biasa
mengharapkan kasih-Mu
meraba dalam kegelapan
mencari dalam keperitan
menongkah badai penderitaan
aku mengharapkan kasih-Mu
menunggu sinar-Mu
aku terus melangkah
sampai satu masa
aku terdampar
bingung tanpa arah
kelam tanpa bicara
permulaan yang getir
untuk mengharapkan
pengakhiran yang sempurna
tunjukkan ku jalan
pimpin ku ke arah
ketenangan yang abadi
kebahagiaan yang hakiki
moga suatu hari
aku mampu
menggapai sinarmu Ilahi
moga suatu masa
aku mampu
berdiri seteguh Siti Khadijah
di samping
Muhammad kekasihMu.

azu201

H.O.L.I.D.A.Y

2008-08-10T14:39:00.001-07:00

Venice

Malaysian Hall

Switzerland

It has been a long time I did not pour any latest news on this blogger. I dont feel like writing as I dont know what to write..What a ridiculous thing!!Hahaha...I just wanna upload a few photos during my last vacation about two weeks ago. And for your information I just back from my summer holidays. I went to sevent countries including Spain, Italy, Switzerland, Croatia, Hungary, Czech Republic and Austria. I gained a lot of experience and there were so many incidents happened during our journey. I learnt on how people reacted towards each other, how to give and take, how to share things and how people perceived towards one another. Whatever it was, I was so happy as we arrived safely. That was one of the best memory in my life. Unfortunately, I have a problem downloading all the photos. I have only successfully downloaded three photos here. Will be downloading again in a short time...C yaaa..

azu201

N.U.K.I.L.A.N

2008-07-09T15:34:00.000-07:00

masihkah ada masa,
masihkah ada hari,
masihkah ada waktu,
untuk ku melangkah,
menggenggam impian yang luhur,
ku tahu,
di balik hati yang sepi,
setiap jiwa ada hidupnya,
setiap jasad ada pengakhirannya,
setiap hati ada sayangnya,
bila kasih bersemi,
pabila ucapan terungkai,
seribu satu persoalan ,
menjadi tanda tanya,
ku terus melangkah,
biar pun perit,
biar kelam tak bermaya,
untuk mengejar kebahagiaan,
walau seribu tahun,
kan ku teruskan perjalanan,
walau tersungkur,
ku tahu,
setiap kepayahan,
tersurat kebahagiaan,
setiap kepedihan ,
tersirat kedamaian,
aku redha dengan ketentuanMu,
kurniakan aku ,
hidayahMU,
petunjukMU,
moga aku mampu berdiri,
bangun kembali,
menghadapi kenyataan,
realiti sebenar,
seorang KHALIFAH....
azu201

D.O.N.T K.N.O.W

2008-07-08T23:45:00.001-07:00

I woke up so early today. I couldnt sleep last night. I miss everything back in Malaysia. What a nice dream if I could be there now. The weather is quite bad. It has been raining since last night. I had a great day yesterday. I had a dinner together with Uni Plymouth's friends including some of my friends in Marjon. It was such a wonderful dinner as everyone can gather and get along very well. I learn how to socialise and make a lot of friends here. I am not that talkative. People say I am serious if they haven't known me. I am not that serious. You have to try and talk with me then only my true colours are revealed. lol. I am quite nervous to travel by this Monday but deep inside the excitement is there. It will be such unforgetful experience for me. I dont think I will have a chance to make it in future. It would be better if my family can join me. I hope, the journey will open my eyes to see the new world. For sure, there are a lot of new things to be experienced. There is where friendship and trust play their roles . I hope I will enjoy my holiday as this will be my last long holiday before I am back for goods to Malaysia.

M.Y.S.E.L.F

2008-07-06T12:17:00.000-07:00

People say i'm serious,
People perceive i'm sensitive,
Whatever it is, that is me,
What can i do with it?
That's just a perception from them,
A truly heart comes from inside,
It is an internal reflection,
From the heart of the owner,
It is what it should be,
People can always judge us,
People can always say about us,
whatever it is,
We are the one who can appreciate ourselves,
We are the one who understand what is happening inside us,
I am contented with what I have,
I hope I wont regret with all my decision,
With all my effort in achieving my own desire,
My own satisfaction,
Thanks to all of you,
Who always stand beside me,
Who always hold my hands when I need someone in my life,
Without all of you,
I am sure,
I couldn't stand like what I am now....
azu201

M.A.R.Y P.O.P.P.I.N.S.

2008-07-04T12:06:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum..

I have watched Mary Poppins in Plymouth Theatre Royal yesterday. It was such a wonderful experience. I never imagine I would go watching theatre before. I was so surprised with all the props as well as the actor and actresses. This theatre was produced by Disney and I also believe you can imagine how great it was. Before I decided to watch this theatre, I did not know anything about Mary Poppins. I wondered why some of my friends are so eager to watch it. I read a summary from the internet about this story as I never watch the film before or maybe I forgot I had watched it. The storyline is about a nanny who has to face two naughty children. She has a magical power and there is when most of the fantastic parts of the story are revealed. It is more to a fairy tales or would be best acknowledged as my topic for my dissertation. I hope I wont be in a fantasy world as I am surrounded by this kind of atmosphere now. lol. Sometimes I ponder how lucky I am to be here in another part of the world. You know what I mean right. If I were still in Malaysia, I wont have chance to explore new atmospheres and opportunities here. I feel very grateful and thanks to God for giving me such wonderful experience. I would like to express my gratitudes to my parents, Encik Jamil and Puan Rogayah for their courage and supports. Without them, I wont have this chance to be here. I will never forget what my sister said. She said I was very lucky to be here. I can go travelling, be in another country, assimilate to some of the cultures and ideas, as well as have the oppotrunity to study abroad. I have never dreamt I would be here but it is happening to me now. I have been here almost two years. I faced a lot of things here. Ups and downs. Thick and thin pieces of life. Being an ordinary human being is not an excuse for me to run away from a lot of hardship and pain in life. Alhamdulilah , I am still a normal person who can still differentiate between the good and bad. Nonetheless, experience teaches me how to be strong, how to see things from different perspectives and how to control my emotions. Sometimes I do fail to do so. I never regret what was happening to me as everything was not under my control. I am still like before. Whatever things come around me, I have to face it without any doubt. There is no excuses for me to be an ignorant. Thanks to 'Him' for being with me all the time and I hope 'He' will always guide me in the best way.
azu201

Is this me or is it just a signal?

2008-07-02T15:10:00.000-07:00

Your Love is Based on Commitment

You believe that love is something that develops and grows.

You don't believe in love at first site, and you never mistake lust for love.

For you, love is about mutual devotion, respect, and understanding.

You don't feel comfortable in a relationship, unless you're both in it for the long run.

Why your love can last: You don't take commitment lightly - or leave relationships easily

Why your love can fail: You're so committed, you often can't see the most obvious problems in your relationship

What Is Your Love Based On?

Am I?

2008-07-02T15:05:00.001-07:00

You Have A Type A- Personality

You are one of the most balanced people around

Motivated and focused, you are good at getting what you want

You rule at success, but success doesn't rule you.

When it's playtime, you really know how to kick back

Whether it's hanging out with friends or doing something you love!

You live life to the fullest - incorporating the best of both worlds

Do You Have a Type A Personality?

D.O.W.N.

2008-07-02T03:54:00.000-07:00

Hi...I dont know what i am going to talk today. I just feel lonely, empty and heartless. Why is it happening now? I have lots of things to do. I have lots of matter to think. Why is it so difficult to forget? I know this is just a beginning of life. There is a lot more to come but how I wanna face this at the moment? Its easy to say just forget about it and move on without looking at it again. Its not as simple as that. Your mouth can converse it but not my heart. Nonetheless, I feel so lucky as I still have my family and 'Him' at my side. I hope He wont go away from me. I hope He always give me strengths to face the obstacles and calamities in life. I feel so down now. I wish I wont have this feeling..miserable, sad, gloomy,lonely....

B.O.S.A.N.

2008-06-29T18:06:00.000-07:00

Alhamdulilah...I feel quite happy now though there are tonnes of work to do. Cant imagine this year will be my final here in UK. Anyway, thanks to God for all the opportunities given to me. Thanks to my parents for their prayers days and nights. Hmm..Im 23 now..Am I like 23 young lady? Not lady..sorry..a teenager maybe...hmm..I dont feel like im 23. It's not because I'm 'perasan' ok..but am i matured enough to be 23? I dont know what is the right answer for that. Some of my friends are working now Some of them have already got married at this age...And dont be surprised...Quite a few of them got baby now..Hm..thats life right...Life is hard (Sashi 2008)..I still can remember till today. Sometimes it is very hard. It is undeniable yeah...Anyway life has to go on..Whatever it is, face it with strong mind, heart and soul. God always be with you...Good night!!! Daaa..wasalam

L.O.V.E.

2008-06-25T04:25:00.000-07:00

People always say that love is blind? What do you think? Does it make any signal to your mind? It depends and it is undeniable to a certain extent. What is love? It is very subjective and depends on the individual. It has an enormous meaning and everyone who knows love will appreciate things around them. Love is not only for human beings. Love to God is the most crucial thing in our life. In my personal opinion, one who loves God will understand what is true love. Love sincerely and wholeheartedly should be one of the criteria to love someone. Love is more to give and take between two person. It is not a deal between them but it is a deal between two hearts and souls. Love to God is more precious as we need to have faith in our heart. Without faith and belief, we wont be able to have a true and sincere worship to God. Love can change a lot of things thought it might hurt us a lot. To forgive and forget is not that easy but with love, it wont be a huge matter. For me, to forgive might be easy but not to forget. Whatever it is, love cannot be segregated from our life. With love, we survive...With love, we live and with love, we can conquer one's heart. Dont ever take it for granted as love is so pure. Thus, we have to preserve the pureness of love before it disappears unintentionally.

"Love is like quicksilver in the hand. Leave the fingers open and it stays. Clutch it, and it darts away." - Dorothy Parker

H.O.P.E.

2008-06-24T08:28:00.000-07:00

Life is too short. No one can predict what is going to happen on the next day. Though what is happening to you is painful, appreciate your life as if you wont see the world tomorrow. It is universaly acknowledged that life may change at anytime as well as human beings. We always hope for something to be cheered but dont ever hope it will happen in a sudden. Hope is something that make us enthusiastic to live and appreciate things around us. Hope is not to be destroyed. Hope is not to be taken for granted. We can always pray for our hope to make it as a reality. Nonetheless, dont hope too much as it can kill ourselves. I always wonder, why we have to hope for something when we know we cant achieve it and why people like to give hope? That is what we called part of life. Without hope, there is no life. With hope, we have to make an effort to get for it. With hope, we have to proceed our live and try to achieve what we want. Dont ever give hope to anyone if you think you might not make it as a reality for him or her. If not you are the one to be blamed in future. You might kill somebody's life if you take that hope for granted. Hope is to make people treasure their life so that they can value what is happening around them. Be thankful with what you have. Be grateful with what you got. Sometimes, we might not get everything that we want. That is the time when we should ponder what we have achieved before.... What have we got before.... This is the time for us to be contented with what we have attained before. Appreciate with what you have now before it is too late. It is such precious gifts from God. He knows what is the best for us.

My hEaRTs aLWays and eVEr...

2008-06-21T15:13:00.000-07:00

There is no matter how happy I am, how sad I am, how worried I am and how tranquil I am...They are always in my mind. No matter what happen, they are part of my soul and my heart. Even though my siblings and I did get into quarrelling, but the bond wont ever be ruined. The blood that we have, will always be the proof that we always be together. Emy, nadia and Enel, work hard to get what you want. There wont be anyone to help us if we are not helping ourselves. I always pray for you my dear...Bapa and Mama always hope for our success...I love you all so much...
azu201

S.T.R..O.N.G.

2008-06-21T14:37:00.000-07:00

It is true that life is unpredictable. We always expect something beutifully happens in our life. It is not as simple as that. As a human being, we always try our best to make our life meaningful. Sometimes we fail and we will try to bounce back...Until when? There is no exact answer for this question. We keep trying every now and then. We keep hoping the same thing everyday. Hoping there will be a magical which make our life full of pleasure and amusement. Nevertheless, the reality might be changed. We have to accept the truth. It hurts us a lot. But that is what we have to face. We have to be strong..We have to be prepared mentally and phisycally. It is true that other people wont understand our true feelings. Our heart feels it..It is so painful..We can feel it deep down inside...Who can understand the sadness? Who can guide us through this? Please God...Dont let us drown before we can stand again and take the challenges. Dear my friend, accept what has happened to you. No matter how hard it is, please dont hurt yourself. God knows what is the best for you. He wont test us if we cannot undergo that situation. Take everything as an experience regardless of anything. Life can be so terrible but believe me, one day you will know life might give you a miracle. I know the pain..I know the sadness that you are facing now..Whatever happens, we have to move on. Time wont wait for a miracle to happen.We are the one who can create that miracle...Be strong..I will always be be with you in whatever condition. Lots of love...
azu201

Alhamdulilah...

2008-06-17T06:51:00.001-07:00

Alhamdulilah..praise to God..I am done for my timed-essay exam. it was quiet difficult when it came to the time management...there're lots of things to write..however, with His help, I think i've managed to do it..And now tawakaltua'lallah...just ask for His blessed and hope I can get a good result..This is my last exam before im going back to my beloved country, Malaysia...Im sad to leave my room here, the facilities that i've got and most prominent thing is the atmosphere..though Malaysia is always in my heart,I feel so grateful as I can study and stay here for almost two years. Praise to Him...Alhamdulilah..I hope this wont be the last time for me spending my time in UK..It is such a great experience for me...I have a lot more to do before my departure to my home country...dissertation and assignments..Ya Allah..Help me going through all of these..Give me some strength and guide me in a right and better way...Wasalam

K.E.H.I.D.U.P.A.N

2008-06-16T10:41:00.000-07:00

Hidup umpama layar di dasar lautan..terus melambai di tiup sang angin...begitu jua dengan manusia...kadang-kadang hidup kita tanpa arah, tanpa haluan...terus meniti kehidupan biarpun gelombang badai terus melanda..di mana arah tuju kita? smpai bila kita harus hidup tanpa mempedulikan realiti yang harus kita lalui...Hidup tanpa arah ibarat hilangnya sinar di kala mentari menyinari...biarpun liku-liku hidup ini terlalu pahit, adakah kita kan terus berlari tanpa menoleh kembali? hidup mampu mengukir seribu satu nostalgia, seribu satu memeori malah seribu satu kata-kata sakti yang tak mampu ditangkis..dengan kehidupan, kita menjadi insan, dengan kehidupan kita menjadi hamba-Nya dan dengan kehidupan juga kita mampu berjuang sebagai khalifah..Biar waktu ditelan zaman, biar bumi hilang arah pusingannya, biar matahari hilang cahayanya, hanya padaNya kita berserah...Gerimis-gerimis hujan mampu menerbitkan kembali pelangi nan indah..begitu jua dengan kehidupan yang kita lalui...kebahagiaan akan terus dititip jika kita berani menongkah arus dan badai kehidupan..hidup ini hanyalah sekali cuma..tempuhinya dengan penuh ketabahan,kekuatan,ketenangan agar penyesalan dapat ditangkis di hari kemudian..berjuang selagi ada waktu di samping mengharapkan kekuatan dari Yang Maha Mengetahui...

Hasil Nukilan...
azu201

Timed-essay 'best'...

2008-06-16T08:58:00.001-07:00

I have a timed-essay exam tomorrow...argghhh..just cant wait to let it go..its not that i have prepared it but it keep my mind in a 'tensed mode'...I have done some revision for this test. I hope I can do it well tomorrow. May God helps me go through it. Just wanna send my gratitude to my cute sis here..to you 'mira'..hehe..thanks for spending your time doing the revision with me..if not kakwani will be the laziest person in the world.I feel quite grateful and happy at the moment. What happened around me made me strong but im not sure until when the 'strong' will be with me. Just remember that God will be at my side all the time. Spending my time in uk has given me lots of experience. I learnt on how to tolerate with others, know what friendship is all about, experienced some best moments with mates and one more thing...cant wait to travel around Europe this summer..Im going to seven countries and it is going to take about three weeks of journey. I cant imagine what is going to happen without enough sleep, rest and the most vital part is 'food'...haha...Last but not least, I learnt to save my money here..Alhamdulilah, I got a part-time job here and it really taught me to be patient and get along with other people well...Nice experience but sometimes it can be very terrible..God knows..huhuhu...Before I go, I hope that my life will be better and tranquil. Got to go..Wish me luck for tomorrow..Wasalam

Life has to go on...

2008-06-12T02:17:00.000-07:00

There are a lot of calamities and obstacles in our life. Whatever it is, we have to be prepared with it. It is not easy to go through it once you are facing it. Sadness, worrier, gloominess will be part of your life. But dont ever forget, there are solutions in every problems that occurred. Sometimes, we cannot predict what will happen in the future. Sometimes, we cannot find the panacea for the problems. Thus, there is only one way to make ourself feel tranquil with what is happening. Just go with the flow and 'He' is always be with us. 'He' knows what the best for us. Once the problems have been solved, take it as one of our success in life. We succeeded facing all the obstacles though it might hurt us a lot. I remind myself and the others that life is not that easy. It can be very complicated where we can be hopeless and want to give up. Nevertheless, just remind yourself that Allah is always guide people who want to help themselves. Keep praying and never give up. The light might not appear with only one prayer. But believe in your heart and your soul, it will be given for you one day....InsyaAllah...

Welcome to my own website..

2008-06-11T12:23:00.000-07:00

I had design this website as one of the fulfilment in my course. It is a simple website as im not the expert in ICT i guess. However i felt so grateful as i had finished it on time. It might not be the best one but it is a good attempt for me...Thanks to MIKE BOSTON, my dedicated lecturer. He was so patient in helping us finishing this 'great' stuff...Have a look at my website...

http://menas.net.marjon.ac.uk/mb/azuani

Assalamualaikum..

2008-06-11T11:37:00.000-07:00

Assalamualikum..I've created this blog since a month ago but i do not have any strength to start writing in it. It is not easy to do some writing especially if you have a lot of things to do which involving this skill. Writing has become part of my life as it is prominent to me especially when im doing my assignment. And now it has been a great vital part to me as dissertation will be my partner until this november. What a shame guys...I hope i will have a strength to pour some new information or some knowledge into my blog. Im not an expert in everything as im still learning. In addition, my writing is not that good so that you have to bear with it...hehe...I hope i will gain something by creating this blog. It is not a place where im going to be famous or a condition where everyone will know about me, but it is more to my personal experience. Sometimes, we do not have to face all things in this world as we can learn from other's experience as well. I hope i can share something with u guys...Though the post might not be vital in your life, but i hope everyone can get something from it... wasalam